Thoughts While Running Outside

In my last post I mentioned that I've been using the treadmill as a sort of security blanket. Because of that pesky ADHD, sometimes I think too much.

So, in the spirit of keeping it real, here are thoughts that go through my head when I'm running in public:

Oh my god, is that my breathing?

Shit, this is hard.

Ooh a lizard/cat/cool bug!!! I must stop and look/pet/chase after it.

Oh my god, there was big rock right there. What if I'd tripped on it and hurt my ankle? 

(Imagine and re-imagine said scenario for at least a quarter of a mile)

Seriously, I sound like a wildebeest.

Faster. I need to go faster.

 OMG I'm awesome.

Okay too fast.

That person is going to think I need medical attention thanks

 to my abnormally loud breathing. 

I better say hello as loudly as I can so they know I'm okay.

 

Why am I veering to the right? (Imagine I'm a car with alignment problems. 

Figure out what kind of car I would be.)

I hope I don't stumble off this 2 inch curb and hurt my ankle. 

(Dwell on new scenario for another quarter mile.)

DONE!

I am a total badass.

It doesn't take an expert to figure out that I'm self-conscious of my breathing and terrified of hurting my ankle again. We all have our issues...the important part is that I get out there, get my miles in, and feel super awesome afterwards.